What happened for this whole week:

Last Sunday: Prata Fest. u should see how ms chua order the food. "What kind of prata u have besides egg and plain? do u have banana prata? mushroom prata? mushroom cheese prata? blah blah.. oh do u have a menu instead pls?"

Tuesday: I helped Lay Hoon source for some food for Welcome tea

Wednesday: Welcome Tea! one of the most fun times with eclub members cos it is the only few times that we played so much games and had great fun luffing at others. Intro ppl to eclub and managed to talk some crap into it. :) Oh yah i saw Yang Ce when i was bringing my juniors to tour ard eclub territories. It was den i realised, all my juniors are from Jurong sec. Ahh i am only dismissed at near 7. so sorry for making meiyee and honhon wait for me.. sianx, hope somedays we can go home tgt or have some gathering at saranya house. :)

Friday: One of the worse day of the week cos we had lesson from 8am all the way to 3pm. wad worse was is that we only had a 15mins to 20mins break in btw. First we suffered so badly during the PC by running 5 rounds and being tortured by Nathapon(is this how u spell her name?). Followed by Chem Test. Followed by a 2hr40mins chem pract!! The chem lab was in a disaster cos everybody seems to do the experiment wrongly. 20mins of break followed by another 2 hrs of Phy tutorial!!. Horrible! Went to love fiesta room to do smth str8 after tutorial. and den went to have dinner with BS Gang.

This time BS Gang unite. All 5 turn up. and we realised for most of the gatherings, it has always been the 5 of us talking plus ms chua's horrible laugher. chatted all the way to 8plus. :)

Saturday: Went to sch for love fiesta in the early morning, tear down all the papers stick on the floor and on the walls of the room. Can't believe tt room would soon to be Eclub members' room in future. Oh yah joke of tt day. LOL Ms tiong: "U cannot measure hauntedness in economic terms". we hear already we all Question mark all over the brain. LOL.

Packed and went down to Vivo with PST team to sell stuff. Saw a lot of "Stars" - Leon, Samuel(campus superstar), Averil.. Sell finish and i switched my role to being motivator wahahaha. no la. just tt i wore the tee shirt only. bud i got very high okay. HAHA. me and itchy took over leonard job of looking after the bags. and spent much of the time chatting. Kang Sheng keep asking us to go and enjoy ourselves and keep bringing food for us to eat =.=. bud we refused

Den got 1 time he suddenly come and say in a serious tone "Eh.. u all better go out and help celeste. i think she needed u guys help at the booth". So the both of us went out and asked celeste how we can help. den u noe what she say.. "Orh.. Enjoy urself!". Den the both of us question mark a while.. den we realised we got cheated!. *faints

The rest of the time was spent on zi-highing lor. Got a lot of teachers came leh and the chem teacher ms Aisha or smth is damn high la LOL. and we all sang Zombie tgt. Plus we compete with one another see who scream louder. hahaha.

went home at ard 10plus. drop dead on the bed! oH yah i almost sat on 3 small cockroaches. YUCKS. and its on the damn stupid BUS 963. Omg lor. at first i tot is just cakes or smth. den i sat beside it actually wanting to clean it off. den the things started to crawl away!!!. ARGHHH. i hate Bugs. damn it. this is the reason i always feel a sense of satisfication when i pour hot water on cockroaches. LOL. i am a psycho!!

We attempted to go sentosa too. LOL and we realli did to sell the bears bud got chased away in the end. WAHHAHA. tt's so damn funny.

Plus plus.. Angie. omg she's so damn lame!! u should hear abt her ideas of selling the tickets away. Rocks and funny man!! hahahahaaha

12:52 PM

Kinda feel stress over some stuffs. and withink 2 weeks more, i will be free from everything :).

yesterdae someone asked me, "Is ur personality in Xi'an ur real personality?".. "Why? what's make u think i'm nt?"... "U seems to be diff from Xi'an when u are in class?"

Somehow i dunno how to answer? i tot i am always been portrayed as being kiddy, childish, playful.. high at times when i'm in class or during lecture too.. Just tt i'm way too high in Xi'an.. Or maybe like what itchy had said "Actually.. when we in xi'an tt time we have less stress tt's why we feel more relax and happy". Things wasn't the case when sch reopens..

Then they said they dunno how they should treat my personality as (if i got the real meaning correctly). Does my personality realli matters how u should interact with me? Cos u are always quiet.

Maybe no one just know me well. I know myself the best, i admit that i have very serious mood swings problem and i am attitude. Bud i always feel tt i portray myself to the best. I dun fake. What u see of me is realli what is me. Bud it depends on the situation, i am shy when i started to know u. When i know u better, i become uber talkative. and smth liddat.

I feel tt everything in my life seems to have crashed or smth. I feel tt stress had realli changed me into another person. I'm sorry for being attitude and stuff. just gib me 2 more weeks and i will be back to being a carefree and relax.. happy fun going person :)

12:32 PM

nw 4am!.. Finally finished the last 5 quests of physics G-field. wonder why it tooks me like hrs to finish when they are quite simple to be done. I think mr tan teachings make me noe g-field better. Woo! and then i was watching Split Second and Ten Brothers just now. Wah.. 10 bro make me luff till i cock especially the 5th bro. Idiot was like complaining how Sissy tt guy was when he screamed la. hahahaha

Finally revised the Power series cos for the past 2 lectures i have been sleeping away. Why? Cos the maths lecturer failed to attract my attention!! boring and i simply hate tt particular topic notes. Forget to bring my lecture notes and i'm preparing to fall asleep but.. Mdm Goh sat behind me la. Omg. den i cannot sleep liao. Nvm. ever since JC i learnt to do independent studies. Cannot depend on teacher.

Wahahaha . Huibing was asking me if i wan Leon to sing any song, den ask me to choose song. and i was like Pls sing "Ai Wo Hai Shi Ta"!!. Hahaa bud dunno will sing a not leh. So if u hear him sing tt day.. is sing for me 1!! LOL. Surprises...

Better catch 30 winks if not i tmr no need listen in class le! must revise SHM again in bus. Sianalogy!

3:45 AM

If u always look on the positive side of the life and take things easy. As in dun everything also take it to heart. Life could have been easier and happier!! Tt's why i am so happy today even though so many ppl PSed. hahahahahah yesterdae night i slept at a uber late timing and somehow being in a quiet environment makes me think too much. Suddenly feel so terrible. But after a gd night sleep. i'm a happy go lucky girl again! (:

Sometimes i feel tt life of a retard (like Ah Wang), could have been better cos he have a simple mind and do not care whether ppl take adv of him nt. weee


I am loving chem practical cos looking at my crystalised benzoic acid makes me feel damn good. Cos it was realli amazingly nice! White and feathery.

and.. Banana Prata!

11:28 PM

sometimes when u are in ur unhappy times, u wishes tt ur life is fastforwarded to the point tt u get wad u deserves in return for ur hardwork. Just like CLICK!. Well i watched it this morning before i headed to get my bursary award. It wasn't realli funny maybe becos i didn't get their joke or smth bud its definitely touching..

Bursary award thingy was held at some weird place - Fajar Sec Sch. Weird like hell-` and it was then i realise it was only within walking dist for me. Nice! Wad weirdest thing is.. the 2 person who sat beside me are ppl whom i seen b4. 1 was qiying's classmate and the other was Patrick(sm's fren). He couldn't recog me tt's why i dun wave to him WAHAHA. the whole thing bored like hell until i realli fell asleep. for like 15mins liddat. Hahah malu-ed.

11:38 PM

What we learnt in Physics are purely assumptions or truth?

Physics claim that sound waves do not travel in a vacuum(which meant space), however researches have been done and yet they realised information like sounds etc are able to travel to another part of space within seconds. Wow!

Boo! At least i found some beam of hope for my improvement in physics and i really feel that i am able to ace it cos Mr Tan is a uber good teacher. He shows sincerity in teaching us and do not look down on us. When lihui told him "i completely dun understand wad u talking about". And he do not give u a "sian-i-have-to-explain-to-u-again" look and instead praised her for voicing out. I find him realli funny la cos he kept saying "Dun sleep during lectures, Its-not-nice-la", "Dun talk during assembly, Its-not-nice-la". Plus plus, he is like so worried we lied to him that we understand wad he teaching. hahah He is one teacher who teach u until u are able to understand.


Oh yea i'm looking forward to the weekends, some break and rest for me. getting bursary and still considering whether to go saranya's birthday party since i am seriously broke and yet i have to spent 20bucks on food + the time spent on waiting may be another prob tt i'm considering. Time is rather precious for me. i needed time to study for my organic chem. Sunday would be spent on mugging and at evening- OEEP prata fest! I feel that till now, we are still the most enthu and bonded OUAP grp. :)

I dunno how i portray myselves in front of frens. I rmb siqi telling me i don't know how to hide my anger and i myself feel that i have mood swings. Stress changed me into another person. I feel that there is a little strain in friendship btw this classmate of mine and me which i believe is purely my problem. I dun like ppl knowing me too well or ppl think tt they actually know me. Somehow i feel awkward talking to her, so that's the reason i try to avoid talking to her. Sometimes it gets tiring when it has always been u who are trying to come out with smth to talk to ppl to prevent the awkward atmosphere.

wadever. homework time!

Superstar- I supported Carrie and Sun Wen Hai!!

10:55 PM

Many people saw my uber pissed face this afternoon. I'm sorry, but i just can't help it. Everyone was telling me how much they are afraid to approach me on seeing my bloody ass angry look. The only thing i could someup today is that i feel that i have become a Chameleon and i am seriously fedup stressed and tired. Why? I can be still smiling to u in the morning and show u an uber pissed look in the evening. And den the next moment back to happy mood again.

I'm not a robot nor am i as capable as a SC to tahan so many things to do at one go.

The 4 damn vulgar letters has been in my heart for like dunno how long. I realli wished that i could go to a beach where there is no one and shout my ass out like what had happened on tv. I'm so damn stressed when money is concerned.. and of cos I'm so damn ass angry with myself. The thing i regretted most in my JC life is that i initiated to be a Finance Manager. I really feel that the current finance system is in a mess and i feel that i am such a lousy Chief Finance Manager. I feel that i disappoint ppl time and again. realli.. Why Chose me in the first place? *Sigh. Plus the fellow Financial Manager of mine always ask me "How ah?". Can't u freakingly make ur own decisions urself? Your BU Concerns ur BU.. just do what u want to do. Can't u see i'm busy enough? Stop bothering me!

I feel that my life kinda turn in to a mess and sometimes i realli hated telling ppl how angry i am or upset i am.. cos i scare i will break down. It's realli terrible to instruct ppl to do things when u urself in the first place couldn't make decision yourself. Sorry i'm not that kind of leader or wad. And sometimes i find that when i assign ppl jobs yet i didn't help up, ppl will gossip and complain behind ur back.

Sometimes i am so tired that i realli wish i could skip the whole thing and leave them all behind. But can i do so? I am the Chief Finance Manager and i should be reliable to the whole thing. I realli wished that i can just dun care abt tt damn Cleaning Up of JJ Affinity for Recruitment Drive, but think twice.. Can i dun go? there are only 2 Finance Manager who are in charge of affinity whom 1 u can see couldn't make decisions herself. Would i have the heart not to go? No, i will feel damn guilty. U think i will bear to leave behind so many ppl to clear up my lan tan zi? I think on monday i kinda scare yiqi when i said in a uber serious tone to Mountain "I WANNA QUIT LE LA!"

Sometimes i really wonder how some ppl have the heart to PON the cca leaving stacks and stacks of work for others to do or slacking around not helping anything.

The thing i'm most angry with is.. i still feel that ms tiong shouldn't include ppl who are involve in love fiesta in the recruitment drive. Maybe right from the start when i told her i wanted to withdraw from love fiesta it should be the right choice. Now i still must be involve in the Welcome-tea stuff and even that Video editing course that should be held during the holidays. This meant that i joined all the programmes la. Freak hell. I was quite angry with ms tiong today cos i realli dunno what she wanted! And plus what she once said to Love Fiesta com "U all must help kawai with recruitment drive u noe.. she very stress now!" How about us? who help those Love Fiesta Com ppl u tell me.. We have so little time to revise our work when tests are all coming up.

I am really angry. we have 33 ppl in the whole of eclub. and dey say they realli needed ppl to help up. Today after i clean up the JJ Affinity, i passed by the booth. Look at it.. at one glance. How many ppl are actually helping up? how many ppl are actually sitting at the booth slacking? Arghhhs.

Fine wadever, maybe i should just handle the work myself, and prevent more confusion. What i feel guilty most is that i have to drag Alena and Char down the water. At least i feel that my BU1 members are more than willing to help me when i needed help. Thanx a lot for all the help given as i realli appreciated it.

9:18 PM

Yo! Have Been rather busy lately that i dun even feel like touching the computer. But it actually meant more time spent on watching TV! I'm so drained for the past few days(too drained to talk in sch) yet i still have tonnes of hw to complete within few hours! Die le die le~ Gone Case!

Basically the past 1 week in sch was spent on - Packing Orientation package, giving out of orientation package, Love Fiesta Meeting- Stamping of tickets, packing of posters etc.. Selling of Love Fiesta Tickets during JJ Nite and stuff. Oh man, realli drained and tired. But at least we got the whole T-break to ourselves and we can help ourself with any ice-creams and ms tiong also treated us to Mac.

I forsee wahhaha the upcoming week would be even more busy. I want to complain! Omg. I rmbed that 2 months back, during an Eclub meeting, Ms tiong was telling us the list of upcoming prog for eclub and each member MUST participate in at least 1 programme. This Includes: Orientation Package, Recruitment Drive, Video Editing Prog, Designing of the layout of Noodle House + New Affinity(which everybody must be involved), Love Fiesta. After thinking, Me and Huibing realised we got cheated by Miss Tiong. Freak man!! I realised that i took part in almost all of the programmes la. i almost went to the video editing prog as well cos there is not much ppl joining it and ms tiong wanted qiying to find 12 ppl (i think). Shit la. No wonder i'm so freaking busy. And i almost burst when i realised i still mus involve in recruitment drive and best- I am the Sub I/C for Cleaning up a JJ Affinity!!

WAH LAO EH. i hate cleaning up of JJ Affinity and that damn dirty store room la. and Is there a need to put me as an I/C. Cleaning up only mah. also need i/c meh!? Wah damn sad u see!!! I tot dunno how many weeks ago ms tiong was saying that ppl who are involve in love fiesta(already damn busy liao lor!!) shouldn't be involve in other things? Wah lao and u should see the upcoming stuff for 2007. BU1 and BU2 can go and die lor! I think i join wrong BU le la!.

Nvm la. Hope Feb 3 faster come and my burden would lighten abit can. But at least i feel that i'm more hardworking than before le. When i go home, my mind no computer, only homework! LOL. No more watching of Hk series and no more of reading up their news cos i think i am losing interest in it.

Well well.. i got alot of photos for Xi'an Trip le!! OMG so nice man! can go and develop le. wahahahah. and as usual when i was going to sch on sat, i suddenly tot of Escape theme park and den i realised it was just last week that i went there yet i feel that its like 1yr back when i went there. LOL. Time realli flies when u are busy. And i dun even feel like sch reopening cos i am always going to sch for the past holiday. But still there is some weird feeling.

Alamak talk too much crap. go do hw le!! OMG GP TIAN AH!!

9:15 PM

I was suppose to blog on the last day of 2006 or the 1st day of 2007. fine. i blogged on neither. LOLs. and let this be the first post of yr 2007!

Bye 2006! Welcome 2007!

Everything ended quickly this year and its really hard to believe that i just took my O'lvl results this year and now i am going to prepare for my As this year. totally Crazy. hardly have much time to settle down.

However, thruout my whole educational life, i feel tt this year is the most fruitful year of my life.

I fulfilled my wish of going to the top few JCs(AJC) in SG and yet i quitted it. I chose it myself- my first time making decisions of going to a sch myself. guess i realli have no affinity with good schs. And maybe like wad mrs lim says, i prefer to be the cream of the crop. The first 3 months of my life is like almost the most terrible days. Imagine listening to sad music and crying along with it. I dunno why i feel like that when i did nt even feel so when i went to BBSS. i realli miss BBSS and my frens, i guess.

Joined Eclub. initially i was suppose to join and slack. Bud due to responsibility i always turn up for meeting if i can and i actually learnt quite a lot of stuffs when i was in Eclub. Great responsibility of being a Chief Finance Manager which i think i dun deserve this post. Maybe more of being lazy. And it also make me realise how hard it is to be an accountant. I joined in activities like Talentime! I found the supplier for the bread and its the first time i went out to source for plastics, breads, potato chips and call up the supplier to order 500 buns! (: real fun yea! Other interesting that happen - JJ Bazzar(what a failure), JJ Open House(can't believe i can be so daring to talk and crap with ppl whom i dunno)... And there's the opening of Noodle House, Merging of Crossroad with affinity which we eclub students get to design the layout. And i sourced for lots of new product in affinity. Alena and I was overjoyed when we found the socks supplier! Orientation package - i made 1000 badge!

If wouldn't for eclub, i wouldn't have the chance to join Love Fiesta and work with SC. though it wasn't really a happy experience(there are happy and unhappy times), at least i realised the fact that - Life is just like this, it is inevitable to work with some ppl u dislike. and i learnt not to give up so easily! Despite the fact tt i dislike the thing, there is no doubt i have learnt a lot of stuffs from the SC and gain lots of new experience!. Calling up zoo, birdpark, mediacorp etc. Painting 30 over banners, chopping 1000++ tickets.

Sch was fun with S14, bud quite pissed with the ppl there cos they may be irresponsible at times. Bud still i do like my class. My studies slacken and my new year resolution was to do the best for As and of cos score excellent results. i was under the JJ Full exemption scheme programme which i dunno is smth to be happy or not. Not Happy? Cos i feel that i have totally slacken becos of it. Happy? I realised the fact that Exam is realli an imp source of motivation(reminds me abt the debate i had 2-3yrs back).

Plus - i wouldn't have the chance to visit Mediacorp too and work for the news team if not for JJ FES Prog! It was realli an enjoyable experience cos i get to see broadcasters everyday and noe nice ppl like Boss, Lynne, Serene and more! Get to have an 1-1 interview with Stefanie Sun and able to act as a reporter! Oh wads best was i entered St James Powerstation when i am actually underage! This is a experience that is totally hard to come by. I learnt to be confident with my work and i finally dare to ask quests la. (: and imagine all others are having exam while u are sitting happily in the office.

Last but not least OEEP'2006. Initially i wasn't even a least interested in this damn thing cos i hate going to oversea to study. Managed to be convinced by Mr Ho's constant psycho-ing and at tt time i was too irritated by his naggings so i just hand up the form. In the end, i did not redraw cos i feel tt its has been 5 years since i last went oversea. It was my first ever trip tat i went to such a far away place on a plane without my parents. It was my first ever trip to China. It was the first ever trip that i celebrated my birthday in overseas. It was the first ever trip that i enjoy so much despite that fact the programmes are not interesting. Thru this trip, i get to know ppl whom i already noe better and even become gd frens with them, and i get to know more new frens. What most enjoyable in life for me was to make lots of frens. and till now i still have no idea how come the whole OEEP grp can be bonded as a whole. It makes no sense when the girls and guys hardly interact with one another.

I realli misses the days that we BS-ed every night. Misses 809/807, misses the whole of 8 floor where we had so much fun like kicking footballs, playing chapteh, sleeping on the corridor while chatting. Misses the time that 16 or even 19 of us squeezed into a small lift. We opened our doors wide open at night and we basically shouted over to the next door. It have been so much fun! Till now i still couldn't believe i noe ppl like Offing and Wenlin for only 1month and yet i can get along well with them. It seems like we known each other for years and OEEP was 1 yr ago matter. Me attaching to mediacorp seems so long as well when its only a 2 months ago matter. May our frenship be long lasting.

To Wenlin and offing: See me must be enthu when u say Hi hor LOL. dun wave wave only. WAhahahhaha Rmb to BS at least once a month.

Sadly, there's always an end to everything. Its completely in possible to go back to the past where u enjoy ur happy times together. Always reminds me abt TOB - "人生很短暫,但是只要曾經燦爛過,就會沒有遺憾!" at least i still have memories!

2:56 AM